Trying to fix a painting.. inspired by thoughts and visual awareness from my hike today..well yesterday now.. terrains, tree felling, January sunset, tree stumps, wild winds over Lough Tay and spying on sparrow hawk trying to fly against the winds.. .
When out sketching in the open landscape today I met a sheep farmer who was walking up the hill towards where I was stood doing some sketches. He stopped to ask what I was painting and I told him I was just doing some abstracted sketches of what I’m seeing. He wondered if there was a market for that and the conversation went on to his days in school and how he hated it.. I responded with the same feeling and said how I loved the art class though. He was out walking up the hills looking for his sheep and asked if I’d seen any on my trail. That’s was it really..Its the small things..
This is my new painting ‘The Sheep Farmer’
and today’s experience prompted me to title my new series of paintings
This painting went to many different places as it progressed. I painted layer over layer and made marks where later I lifted them again. I spent days looking at it until I could see where it wanted to go.
Sometimes I have to destroy certain elements of a painting before I can take it any further.. I try not to overcrowd the work which can be very difficult sometimes. The painting set out so different but as it has come to near the end, the narrative has finally emerged that I was looking for. My feelings of nature and the beauty it brings.
This is where my painting is taking me right now.. It may look like an entirely different artist’s work but if you really look at it, it’s not.. I’m letting go of order and expectation. That being entirely from my own expectation and criticism within my own institution..
Abstraction is very hard but it’s also very freeing. It requires trust and inner connection, but to let go of question and fear..
I find myself painting over abandoned paintings lately and it comes with no hesitation when I’m returning to it.. Even the harshest of endings..
Going in and not thinking too deeply as I had been with me last series of paintings. I feel an immense sense of freedom, something I’ve been striving for before. I think too much there fore I tried to control too much. Now I am releasing all that energy into my new work and I don’t think I’ll ever go back.
The act of making a painting is about freedom and expression. My memory of light, colour, form, and aspects of the landscape that stays in my subconscious are what’s important with the will to let go and let it happen without thought or consequence. .
A short video of my recent experience in my studio. I am feeling very much alive with this new work I am making..