I paint because I have to

I see it I paint it

I feel it I paint it

I dream it I paint it

Eltanin, Oil on Canvas, 80cm x 80cm

I hear it I paint it

I want it I paint it

I don’t want it I paint it

I love it I paint it

Eltanin, close up detail

I hate it I paint it

I am it I paint it

I am not it I paint it

I paint it I don’t paint it

First painting of 2019

This is my first painting of 2019 which is almost finished. For some reason the thoughts of the planets aligning came to mind somewhere during the process. It could be to do with a philosophical conversation I had with my father when I was back home for Christmas. We were talking about the idea of existence and how perfectly aligned the planets are.. how they came into existence and where we fit in the broader spectrum.. It went on for a while..

Its a constant wonder I have of the universe and where we come from. This is a life long wonder I developed from childhood. I was fascinated by the stars at night and watching documentaries on TV about the galaxy and others beyond.. This is why I love to surround myself in the open landscape and forests as strange as it may sound. I become aware of my size and sometimes questions of my significance momentarily pass through my thoughts.

Where? What? Where?

‘Where Do We Come From? What Are We? Where Are We Going?

Gauguin
‘Where Do We Come From? What Are We? Where Are We Going? By Paul Gauguin 1897


In the last couple of years, I often found myself referring back to this painting.. Gauguin is a painter I took a real interest in when I decided to go back and study the history of art and design in UL (certificate) a few years ago.. When I was in art college, (LSAD, 1993-96), I had no clue how to write essays, even yet dissertations. I had no clue even, at the time, what artist interested me being 19 or did I even begin to explore ways and possibilities of expressing myself outside the school curriculum.. Art. It was a new big world.. Had I been less young and inexperienced in making art and finding myself IN art and living, my dissertation would have probably been a masterpiece. Lol..or maybe not..? The title of this painting and the artist behind it is something and someone that often comes to mind..in recent years.. where, what, where.. who what when.. does any of it matter? Only what matters to you..when it matters and why it matters.. yes I think a lot..it makes me see a lot.. be happy, we are all dying but we are also living.. the seldom few……

Gorilla Face

This is from a walk up Djouce mountain I took recently, the one up behind the woods I venture out to most days.

At the summit stood this giant jutting ‘gorilla-face-like’ piece of boulder. It stood in a communicative posture with it’s muscular physique of back and shoulders firmly grounded.

Below in the distance, her child ventured the world.. Mother and child.. Guider and nurturer.. Watching over..

Gorilla-Face
Gorilla Face