Small work on panel
As one of 93 female artists invited to put a painting into the upcoming exhibition, ‘Eva Gore-Booth’, this is a little behind the work I did in response to a poem Eva wrote called The Dreamer.
‘All night I stumble through the fields of light,
And chase in dreams the starry rays divine…’
By Eva Gore-Booth 1929
All night I stumble through the fields of light,
And chase in dreams the starry rays divine
That shine through soft folds of the robe of night,
Hung like a curtain round a sacred shrine.
When daylight dawns I leave the meadows sweet
And come back to the dark house built of clay,
Over the threshold pass with lagging feet,
Open the shutters and let in the day.
The gray lit day heavy with griefs and cares,
And many a dull desire and foolish whim,
Leans o’er my shoulder as I spread my wares
On dusty counters and at windows dim.
She gazes at me with her sunken eyes,
That never yet have looked on moonlit flowers,
And amid glaring deeds and noisy cries
Counts out her golden tale of lagging hours.
Over the shrine of life no curtain falls,
All men may enter at the open gate,
The very rats find refuge in her walls—
Her tedious prison walls of love and hate.
Yet when the twilight vails that dim abode
I bar the door and make the shutters fast,
And hurry down the shadowy western road,
To seek in dreams my starlit home and vast.
When I first read this poem, I immediately connected with it and instantly I had to record my own ideas, personal feelings and visual description of what I got from it into my notebook. It was just a quick written sketch so I could reference back to when painting.
‘Coming down from the hill of light and starry skies. Long sharp shadows and silhouettes of a gazing face in a eutrophic trance.
The simplicity of a starry night sky, the complexity of the beyond..
The reality of impending death where we will all rejoin the stars.
A pull of darkness and light
Fear and euphoria,
The paradoxal mind of much awareness and granted freedom.
Give way, give way,
We are too small and too large all at the same time…’
I began ideas for this piece with some sketches and studies to come up with composition and try to create a dream-like atmosphere. In my experience of dreams they can often be vivid yet hazy where they feel real but with peripheral edges visually dulled out or too bright to see. Dreams can sometimes define us and try grasp what may be out of reach of in the waking world. They are an escape into the inner self which can be unpredictable, frightening and euphoric all at once.
Here are some of my studies
It was an exciting piece to do and I referenced back to an older painting I did back in early 2019 titled ‘Lucid Dream’. It took several sketches and studies to finally come up with something tangible.
With the studies I tried to give a sense of flight as if an onlooker gazing down into a dream. The light of the stars come through scattered thin cloud of the night sky. It outlines edges of fields with shadows created between the gaps in the night sky of light and darkness.
Running and stumbling along the path of reflected light, she is free and ecstatic for a moment in time.
I enjoy how colours talk to each other and the challenge of making them work within one shared space. Line and texture fall into that same venture at some point and pose similar challenges. I never really know where a painting is going until almost the end. I can’t usually tell when, until I come away from the work and come back. So many new things are discovered, like how some detail needs to go in order for another to live, in the work.
My first of 2020 and part of a small works project I am working on.
For all who have loved and lost, bereavement floats on strange waters..
It is very hard to sit down and write ‘what my art is about’. I never really get it right! that’s true for years!.. So every now and again I try to re-write my artist statement with the hope I’m understood that bit better..
Lots of things come to mind when I paint and for lots of reasons I have the need to paint. Making art is the best way for me to express what I can’t put into words or sometimes even understand.. We live in a small corner of a small planet in a tiny universe.. where there are infinite galaxies and beyond, beyond, beyond… space is continuously expanding too by the way..
In any case.. the link here is a small indication and the rest is up to you the viewer.
I want you to interpret my art your way because it is also for you! 🙂