I paint because I have to

I see it I paint it

I feel it I paint it

I dream it I paint it

Eltanin, Oil on Canvas, 80cm x 80cm

I hear it I paint it

I want it I paint it

I don’t want it I paint it

I love it I paint it

Eltanin, close up detail

I hate it I paint it

I am it I paint it

I am not it I paint it

I paint it I don’t paint it

Painting Process

I am currently working on this painting and this was an early stage where it was a few months ago. I felt at the time that it could be finished at that early stage and I didn’t want to do much more with it. I put it aside for a few weeks, which is what I do when I am not sure about a work in progress.

In the above image is where it had come to in the beginning stages. In the first layer I used sand with PVA, which I haven’t used sense my previous trees series. I used the sand to start the beginnings of the composition and then when the PVA mixed with the sand dried I painted the next layer which was oils and colour with oil sticks to mark make. I painted loosely where the painting seemed to want to go toward. I left it for a few weeks and felt it needed to warmer and brighter. So far this is its progress.. it may be concluded but I’ll give it time to rest.

Today

Things that caught my eye while out hill walking in some of my favourite places yesterday and today. How light changes.. How thoughts move..

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I just had to make it bigger..now it’s become both landscape and a diptych which wasn’t my intention.. What to do??!! ..I have 2 more blank canvases come to think about it…

Observer – Creator.. the Same

I am the observer, less the creator..

This is where my painting is taking me right now.. It may look like an entirely different artist’s work but if you really look at it, it’s not.. I’m letting go of order and expectation. That being entirely from my own expectation and criticism within my own institution..

Abstraction is very hard but it’s also very freeing. It requires trust and inner connection, but to let go of question and fear..

I find myself painting over abandoned paintings lately and it comes with no hesitation when I’m returning to it.. Even the harshest of endings..

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Study

This was meant to be a study for a new painting but I feel it’s painted itself to a place I already.. Who knows..

In progress..

White World

Moving on with this current work in progress and this newly begun small little painting, I hope for the colour to return soon in this white snowy February we are having right now..