I am working on this new painting at the moment and here is a small part of the detail in close up. In its early stages it had been leaning toward a title that came to mind – The Rings Of Saturn.. and more from a sound and movement perspective. For a part of the process I listened to sounds recorded of the planet posted on YouTube..it seemed to intensify the experience and I’m hoping some of that comes through in this painting on completion.
Trying to fix a painting.. inspired by thoughts and visual awareness from my hike today..well yesterday now.. terrains, tree felling, January sunset, tree stumps, wild winds over Lough Tay and spying on sparrow hawk trying to fly against the winds.. .
This painting went to many different places as it progressed. I painted layer over layer and made marks where later I lifted them again. I spent days looking at it until I could see where it wanted to go.
Sometimes I have to destroy certain elements of a painting before I can take it any further.. I try not to overcrowd the work which can be very difficult sometimes. The painting set out so different but as it has come to near the end, the narrative has finally emerged that I was looking for. My feelings of nature and the beauty it brings.
This new painting I’ve just begun today has set out with undertones of warm earth colours. Burnt sienna and raw umber mixed across the canvas with cadmium reds and yellows. The light is mixed with lemon yellow and naples yellow and white..
This is only the first layer, the next one will change everything.
This is where my painting is taking me right now.. It may look like an entirely different artist’s work but if you really look at it, it’s not.. I’m letting go of order and expectation. That being entirely from my own expectation and criticism within my own institution..
Abstraction is very hard but it’s also very freeing. It requires trust and inner connection, but to let go of question and fear..
I find myself painting over abandoned paintings lately and it comes with no hesitation when I’m returning to it.. Even the harshest of endings..